Sorry that I have been absent from the blogosphere as of late. I have been spending alot of time reflecting on my journey and where I am at currently. It's coming up on the one one year anniversary of my first race, I am in week 6 of my (somewhat unofficial) training cycle for my first half marathon of 2012. The year is just starting and my race schedule for 2012 is nearly complete, and its a busy one.
This last week, the fear is starting to creep in, I am afraid I have done too much too fast. That I have over committed myself, that I am over-working my body. For 27 years before I decided to get healthy, I have been abusing my body by not considering what I put in it. I had little concern over the fact that weighing too much was putting undue stress on my body. Even though I weigh less I realize that the damage has been done, as my PT put it, my body has been carrying around all that extra weight for years, you can't undo all the damage overnight. I am working on strengthening my muscles, working on flexibility. But the runs are oh so rough right now and its a mental challenge for me.
I struggle to know what are normal pains versus pains I should be worried about. I have dull aches and burning in my lower legs, pain in my ankles, and then occasional bouts of pain on the outside of my knee. I have self diagnosed them and I am trying to do what I can to fix them. The burning and ache in the legs I am attributing to shin splints, the ankles I am just assuming is because they are weak and unstable, and the knee I believe is related to my IT band. All small things that aren't a huge deal on their own but add up to a very nervous Jenn. So, I have really hit the strength training hard, and I am stretching as well as trying to slow my runs down. I have also given up my goal of 1000 miles this year. I am just going to follow my training plans and do what I can. 1000 miles would be awesome, but not if it causes injuries.
Oh what I wouldn't give for something other than HSA insurance right now. I just can't see paying $500+ to go to a doctor and get everything evaluated! I guess in a few weeks if I am not seeing improvements I will have to reconsider, but for now... just taking it easy.
Hope to have a more exciting post soon, but for tonight.. time to go rest!